As for me, I'm not talking to Him

I know when your a Christian your not supposed to ask why but WHY???? I'm a (I think) good Christian I go to church every Sunday, I try to show an Christian example, We give an offering every Sunday (I admit it's not 10% but we can't afford that), and I try to talk to other people about God and His love. So why God are you doing this to me?? I am having a REALLY bad day. I had two jobs I was waiting to hear from. Well they both called today and said I'm sorry we have filled the position. WHAT?? Money is really starting to get tight around here. And I prayed and prayed (and other people were praying for me) for a job so I could help provide for my family. I told God that the school job was the PERFECT job for me. I love little children, I want to be a teacher someday. And the babysitter is just 2 miles from the school. Just perfect for our family. The bank job I was hoping for great hours and GREAT pay. Would've been a little drive BUT I was willing. I just don't get it. God knows we need money and I need a job. Two perfect jobs just gone. Why God? Why? I know He might have another plan BUT couldn't I just have worked at one of these jobs till then? lol Life is horrible right now. I'm sorry to be such a downer today in my blog BUT I just had to get it out. I'm not one to keep things inside. So if God truly is listening please pray for me and my family. I promise next blog will be more positive with pictures.

We'll NEVER forget!!

Ok so we all know it's September 11th, I'd just like to take a moment and talk about it. I can't believe it's been 6 years!! I remember exactly where I was when it happened, I was sitting in my first class of the day, Spainish. After that class I had choir so I walked out in the lobby for awhile and saw a WHOLE bunch of people around the tvs so I asked what was going on and I just stared in amazment at the tv. I couldn't believe what I was looking at. I went to choir and the teacher and our whole class were in tears. Our teacher let us go home early. I was driving home and the weirdest feeling came over me. I looked up at the sky and there were no planes. I know it didn't happen to me but as I was looking in the sky I just started crying and praying for the people in the planes and the towers. God please just be with them and their families. I called my Mom right after that to make sure she was ok or if she knew. I knew she was ok but in a situation like that you just want to call your loved ones. I got home and watched the coverage on tv for awhile. When I had to go to work!! The store next to us let us use a radio to listen to it. We were dead at work! But I remember a lady coming in and she said she didn't care about what was on tv!! If I wouldn't have been at work I would have lost it! If you don't care lady your not an American get out of our country. Anyway It just feels like yesterday to me. I still pray for the people affected by 9/11 the kids that will never know their parent or grandparent, the wives that will never see their husbands again. God just be with them today as they and the world remember what happened 6 years ago today. Just give them the strength to go on and have faith that their loved ones are waiting for them in heaven with you.

So life has been great here. NO job yet. Megan loves to clap!! She army crawls and can say uh oh, well sorta. We got to spend all of last week with Scott. That was great. Megan and Scott really bonded. We went to the zoo, went to Aunt Bonnies for Labor Day, went to the football games and just had fun. God has really blessed us. Well don't forget to look at the posting before this one for pictures. Talk to you all soon.

Pictures of Megan

Well I'm sorry I haven't written BUT Scott was on vacation and we just enjoyed family time. Here's some pictures of stuff we did:

Scott and Megan at the Ft. Wayne Zoo
Megan and Mommy at the Ft. Wayne Zoo
Mommy and Megan by the turtle

Megan at the Zoo

This blow fish LOVED Megan!!

Megan and her best friend Emmi (my cousin)

I love Fruity Pebbles!!

Today I got a call from the bank for a second interview!!! So that's great! Now I'm just waiting around for the school to call me!! Cause I really want that one. But whatever direction God wants me to go. Mom and Dad came over to Grandma's house (Granny's is only 5 minutes from my house) on Thursday. We had lots of fun. We took a 4 generation picture.

It turned out pretty good. Grandma always has her mouth open so it's ok. Today I've been pretty bored BUT what's new. I was standing by the window with my camera and I took this awesome picture!!

I thought it was neat!! It's the first time I've seen two sitting at the same time. We have three regulars. Two females (in the picture) and one male. Scott and I are trying to figure out some names. I think the male will be Brutus or Nemo. Maybe you Moms that read my blog can help me with this one. I am deathly afraid of SIDS!!! Megan has been rolling over in her sleep lately. So I find myself waking up like 4 or 5 times a night to check on her. She is almost 7 months (WOW she's growing up fast) and I know that from 2 to 4 months is the time to watch. So I'm just wondering if any of you freak out too? Anyway that's it for this blog. But I'll leave you with some thoughts and some more pictures.

Megan fell asleep playing again.

Football is rapidly approaching so I just wanted to make sure her hat fit. lol She doesn't like it much.

She loves playing with the hard wood floors.

Big Brother thoughts:

• I'm not sure if I'm happy Dick stayed or not. I wanted him to leave BUT at least he can work on his relationship with Daniele.
• Amber is driving me up the wall.
• I'm so happy that Daniele is HOH this week. She is a GREAT game player.
• Eric is dumb. And I can't believe Jessica might like him.
• I think Jameka and Eric are going up Sunday. Mark my words.

Life is so awesome with God by your side.

So apparently this is not a daily blog! lol. But so much as gone on these last 10 days it's hard for me to find time. I sent out 5 resumes and I've had an interview with everyone! I'm so blessed. Today I'm having my 5th interview with Fairview Elementary School!! This is the one I want so please pray for me. God please give me the words to say. I also (Friday) had an interview with Midwest Federal Credit Union. Which is a great job. I'm hoping if the school doesn't work out that this bank will work out. (15.25 an HOUR for part time!!!!!!!!!!!) So I'm just asking all my friends and family to pray for me and my potential jobs. Other then that life is great. Megan is a perfect child. She doesn't cry much, she's happy all the time. She and her Dad had a bath Friday night. It was so cute. She loved it.

And did I mention that she is the cutest baby?? I think I have. I'm just so happy and excited where my life is leading me and my family. Recently I felt as though I hit a real low in my life. I know I have a great life and family and friends. I just didn't feel like I deserve them. And I was really down on life and upset about losing the house we wanted. So I gathered what strength I had and pray to God and just give Him the situation. I just prayed that something in my life would change. We needed money and I am and was having cabin fever with Megan lol. It's hot up here. So I just prayed that I could find a job or something that would change our lives and so I could help someone else's. So I believe that God has given me these interviews and hopefully if it's right for me I'll get the school job. So cross your fingers.

The other day I put Megan in a laundry basket and I got some cute pictures:

Now I'd like to comment on Big Brother. I am getting sick of Evil Dick and his mouth! I want him out BAD. Also I found something out that's kinda neat. I know Amber's boyfriend, Ben Veasy, he was a senior when I was a sophomore I think. They live in Las Vegas. And alot of people who know Ben and Amber in Sturgis say she really is a whiner in real life too. Which drives me insane by the way. So I'm hoping that Dick not Danielle gets voted off. But I'm not so busy now so hopefully I'll blog more often. Don't forget to pray about me.

What's been going on??

Well I know I haven't really been blogging lately but I have a good story. There were ups and downs this last week.

Friday through Sunday-

We had The Baker Reunion!! It was so fun! I got to see cousins I haven't seen in awhile. I got to introduce family members to my husband and Megan. They liked Scott but LOVED Megan. (who doesn't??)

In the picture that isn't everyone but almost. They had a golf tournament and Scott's team won. We had Baker Olympics and Scott's team came in 2nd BUT our team had the best poster!!!! Scott has to win everything. It was just really fun. From July 21st till July 30th Scott was in heaven with his new buddy Doug, my cousins husband. They were inseparable for awhile. Scott was even trying to make them move up here from Florida! Right. Here's some pictures.

That's Doug and Mary.

My mom and one of her sisters Cathy.

My cousin Emmi and I. (pretty good picture of me)

Megan playing with the mirror in the bathroom.

Overall the reunion was a blast and I can't wait for 3 years to come around so we can go to Cape Cod for the next one.

The rest of my week kinda sucked. Monday was fun I hung out with Mary and her family for a while. Tuesday was softball day, which means Taco Bell YUMMY!!! And big brother was bad because Nick was nominated!!! Wednesday was good and really bad. I had 2 interviews one at First Federal Bank and one at Fairview Middle School for a secertary job. It was great hopefully I get one of them. BUT the people we were buying a house from couldn't wait for us to sell our house so the sold it to someone else!!!!! I balled for a good part of the day and dropped a few "f" bombs. I know that's not good but it made me feel better. But Scott and I decided if I get a good job we are going to build our own house!!! So now I don't care about the other house much, still mad though. Yesterday I went to Shipshewana which was ok but my friend that I brought along was grumpy so it sucked. And Big Brother sucked because Nick got kicked out!!!!!!!!!! But I guess I was getting sick of his hair! Well anyway that's that so the next blog well be shorter and more interesting.

Guess what?!?!?!?!?!

Megan is sitting up like a big girl!!!! And she does it pretty good no falling over or anything. She is growing up so fast!!!!

And I thought I'd add some more pictures just for your viewing pleasure!! Plus Megan is so cute. She has so many faces that she makes its really funny. So if your having a bad day these will but a huge smile on your face.